Resurrection?

I hadn't thought of this place for a very long time. Why should I? Almost everyone I know has found their way over to FB. But, a chance comment by a friend that I caught on FB telling some folks that he blogged over here made me decide to come see if Kate of Rigel even existed anymore in the land of Blog.

So, here I am. A lot of things have drifted through the murk and mire of my life in the last year. I don't know where some friends are who no longer are on FB. I do know that I'm very, very cautious about what I say and do on that site. I don't trust it, and mainly pop in there once a day to see if there's anything of importance left in a message; mostly I de-stress myself by playing Bubble Witch. It's the one fairly mindless thing I do.

But I miss my blogging here. I miss being able to talk about what is actually going on in my life. I blog in another place, but that place is one that anonymity is of the utmost importance and from time to time I have been able to actually come to trust some people there.

My life is busier than ever, with little or no time where I can really unwind and let my hair blow in the wind. I have nightmares in cycles of night after night depending on the stressors in my life at any given moment. I miss my Dev, my Frankie, my Jeff, my Tracers, my Wolfie. I wonder if they ever think of me or miss me. I wonder if they would ever want me back in their lives. (If you don't see your name on this list, just know it's because I know where you are and have chatted with you or FB'd you from time to time.)

I think I've become a stronger person in my time away. I've had to...I only have myself to depend on. And, I wonder if that's a good thing? Before I depended on myself so well, I tend to think I was pretty over the top as a drama queen thinking that people really liked that part of me. Probably not, though! We could head that under the subtitle of "personal growth" ;)

So, what have I been doing? Surviving comes to mind. But, in that survival, I've lost friends, I haven't done much in the way of writing - and that best seller is still on tap, too! I'm still with Himself, and that's a saga that's truly something I never expected to have to deal with in any capacity. I still work at Big Hospital Teaching School, but I also finished college (again!) and have my own reflexology business which is growing bit by bit, with the goal of reducing my dependence on BHTS. I still get up at 3 a.m. and am at work by 4:15. I'm exhausted most of the time, and am trying to make sure I make time for myself here and there.

I went through my list of bloggers. I was happy to see a few of them still blog here. I was sad to see some haven't posted in forever, just like me because FB got them, too...and there are two in particular that it looks as though I'm going to have to take down when my heart will let me do so. Yes, it still hurts after all this time, Auld Scot, that you left me to deal with situations which were not what I thought they were. I'm glad you've found happiness and have gone on. And, I hope someday you'll feel free to come find me and be my friend again. We both know it will happen in another lifetime and I hope we have enough sense to recognize each other!

Come find me if you like. Read if you like. Comment if you like. I'll rejoice in your friendship and your words here.

May your path be smooth, the air invigorating, and beauty surround you.

K8